Can't i have a normal life?

hi, i am a 22yr old girl. i live with my parents. i stay in India and as it is we don't leave our parents place as long as we don't get married. my mom is very abusive when she gets angry on me. she abuses to the extent that it really hurts a lot. she says all bad stuff about me n then wishes god that wish i could have been dead and all.. i don't know what to do. how to handle her. whenever i tell her mom fine that are angry u can scream but please don't abuse and all, she abuses even more She calls me a slut, a whore - whatever that comes in her mouth . she even talks about me being used by my ex- because i have told her everything that that has happened in my life. she makes fun of me over a bad relationship. its intolerable. and i end up crying because in the end i cant say anything bad... HELP ME