Pretending to be happy?

long life to live. stop trying to end it so early by doing drugs and partying. if you want to stay busy then go shopping, do exercise, go to the beach, do anything. it's normal to pretend to be happy. stop forcing yourself though, it's bad for the heart. go to people that you don't need to put a barrier with. they are the people that are going to let you be free. crying with someone feels better than crying alone. hope this helps :)